My Special One

The day I remember when I fell for u,

I was confused weather it’s my love or just a sign of attraction.

The day I stand today have nothing been achieved,

I don’t know whether I am alive or m still dreaming about all those nights spend together.

The day I remember when a small smile made a huge difference,

I felt the strongest within myself to excel and also to protect.

The day is today were I can’t bear a small jaw pain,

I felt the most lonely and weakest being in the world.

The day was then when the entire group was elsewhere and we were concentrated,

It felt the luckiest to feel so special.

The day is today when all bad dreams arise together,

It felt like exorcism is haunting me every click of a second.

The day was then, when the nights used to turn to days & nights again,

It felt like why this moment so pure so divine.

The day is today where the day is kissing me in an hour but no offense,

It shakes me bad without a meaningless life and bad air presence.

The day was then when holding hands was the biggest comfort of life,

It felt like success therefore is hence achieved.

The day is today were the coziest bed cannot throw me back to dreams keeps it awake,

It feels like life is ahead and I am paused somewhere in the dark.

The day was then when winters breeze used to be so romantic and happening,

It felt like winter is specially made for me.

The day is today when seasons are not sensed and calculated by me,

It feels like everything is good and I am the most undesired.

The day was then when I first sensed of presence which was very eternal.

It feels like the stars and universe are hence to be kissed with every essence,

The day is today were houseful of presence is not bothered

It makes no sense of my presence no endurance of life,

The day was then when I could do anything to make happy.

It felt like it’s my religion to tinkle the hidden needs and fulfill.

The day is today were just the memories are flashing but its uncontrolled,

Its felt like biggest mistake of life is to remain alive……

I should die…….

I don't know what to say and how to express but I would say still I love u forever and ever doesn't matter weather u feel the same or not.....   

"dedicated to bubu"

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